This is in reference to my previous post, so if you haven't read that one, go do that and then come back to this one :-)
Because of the frigged 37 degrees outside it was when I left the house, I was delayed a few minutes in putting on an extra jacket, finding a scarf, as well as gloves. I headed outside just having finished a little more homework (that I admit is late) and am off to get a bagel from the cafeteria despite the fact that it will make me a few minutes late to class. My professor never minds, and I'm not a happy camper when I don't get breakfast.
As I walk in, my professor calls me in (something he usually doesn't) and as I sit down in my seat, my neighbor explains to me that we are being giving a take-home final, and once it's explained we're free to leave....
SCORE!!!!!
:-D
I was SO excited. A take home final means it's open note and book, and I can take my time to do the best I can. On top of that, my professor let us out early which means I now have at least a little extra time to work on homework (or write a blog...) This take home final greatly lessens the stress level; now I can take my time, focus, and figure out how it's all going to get done.
So perhaps my excitement this morning wasn't a practice of anticipation, though I believe that it's still a part of the equation. As I was waiting for my bagel this morning, standing a long with 3-5 of my peers as they were also waiting for their toast one of them turned to me and he simply said "Patience, patience." This is someone I know, but have never had a real conversation with, or formally met. He said it, I'm sure, just to say something and in reference to the bagels. Yet the tone of his voice and the way I gave a half grin and slowly nodded in response hinted at something more.
I don't think my waiting is over. Rather, it has just begun. This morning's blessing from (get this) my Psalms class is a catalyst, something to help me get going, and keep going. From this morning I have hope that good things will happen and continue to happen as long as I accept them. I'm still anticipating, patiently, and now I have hope that my waiting will not be in vain.
I'm done waisting my life complaining and pointing out the negative. I hope you can be too.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I'm waiting...
I woke up this morning in a good mood.
That never happens.
Often I will go to bed giggling and shivering with excitement because I love going to sleep and dreaming. Getting up on the other hand, is my least favorite part of my day.
This morning however, I had a smile on my face. I had the feeling that something is going to happen. Something good. I feel a bit like Tony in West Side Story...I know something's coming, I don't know what it is, but it is gonna be grand (if I let it in, that is).
There was nothing in my inbox this morning; nothing out of the ordinary at least, and there were no notifications on Facebook...I'm planing on checking my mail box later today, but other than that, I'm waiting. I'm going to be patient, keep my eyes, ears, heart and mind open to whatever it may be that's waiting for me.
I think it's interesting, because just in chapel yesterday our campus chaplain was speaking about advent and how the leading up to Christmas is supposed to be like a practice of waiting, or anticipation for Jesus to come. This was something that the Israelites and Jewish people had to do when they were waiting for their Messiah to come. Now, however, in our immediate gratification world (at least here in the U.S.) we have forgotten how to anticipate.
So perhaps today is simply the beginning of my anticipation. Maybe I woke up this morning realizing that I was one day closer to going home, to Christmas, or being done with school. Perhaps I woke up this morning in that realization that God is coming, though He is already with me, and that He is taking care of me, so I don't need to worry about the day, my week, or my future; he's already got me covered.
And maybe there is a surprise in store for me today :-) I'll keep my eyes, ears, heart and mind open to whatever it may be, and welcome it with open arms.
Song Suggestion: Elf's Lament -- Barenaked Ladies
I woke up with this song stuck in my head, and it won't leave! Good thing it's a good song...
(and I recommend the whole Holiday Barenaked Ladies cd to add to your collection. Perfect mix of whit, comedy, holidays, and cheer to add a positive change of pace to your day)
That never happens.
Often I will go to bed giggling and shivering with excitement because I love going to sleep and dreaming. Getting up on the other hand, is my least favorite part of my day.
This morning however, I had a smile on my face. I had the feeling that something is going to happen. Something good. I feel a bit like Tony in West Side Story...I know something's coming, I don't know what it is, but it is gonna be grand (if I let it in, that is).
There was nothing in my inbox this morning; nothing out of the ordinary at least, and there were no notifications on Facebook...I'm planing on checking my mail box later today, but other than that, I'm waiting. I'm going to be patient, keep my eyes, ears, heart and mind open to whatever it may be that's waiting for me.
I think it's interesting, because just in chapel yesterday our campus chaplain was speaking about advent and how the leading up to Christmas is supposed to be like a practice of waiting, or anticipation for Jesus to come. This was something that the Israelites and Jewish people had to do when they were waiting for their Messiah to come. Now, however, in our immediate gratification world (at least here in the U.S.) we have forgotten how to anticipate.
So perhaps today is simply the beginning of my anticipation. Maybe I woke up this morning realizing that I was one day closer to going home, to Christmas, or being done with school. Perhaps I woke up this morning in that realization that God is coming, though He is already with me, and that He is taking care of me, so I don't need to worry about the day, my week, or my future; he's already got me covered.
And maybe there is a surprise in store for me today :-) I'll keep my eyes, ears, heart and mind open to whatever it may be, and welcome it with open arms.
Song Suggestion: Elf's Lament -- Barenaked Ladies
I woke up with this song stuck in my head, and it won't leave! Good thing it's a good song...
(and I recommend the whole Holiday Barenaked Ladies cd to add to your collection. Perfect mix of whit, comedy, holidays, and cheer to add a positive change of pace to your day)
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